My Adult Ideas

My daughter recently told me and her sisters that she thinks; well not that she thinks she says that she is gay. She is only 17 years old and though I would love her to be wrong I think she might be and I am not sure what to think. So instead what I do is that Isimplydon't think about it at all. It's so hard for me to think that mydaughter, one of my babies will be dating women in the coming years.

I can still see her when she was a little girl, she was so cute in the candle light and she was such a good little girl. I remember that I would hold her as she went to sleep and how many hopes I had for her future. At that point it was the early 90's and thought of course there were gay people in the world it never crossed my mind to think that my baby girl, the same one that I was holding in my arms would one day grow up to be gay and would be dating women instead of men.

I know how I sound, I sound like a close minded idiot. I am trying not to be, I am all for gay marriage and for gay people period. I believe that people should be free to love whoever they want, I really do but when it comes to one of your children it's still hard to accept. I am trying, I really am but I wish it was not so. I mean life is hard enough as it is and I already dread what her stupid father will say once he finds out. Some way or another he is going to blame it on me, though how I could make my daughter gay? Still I know it's going to come down to that and I guess in the end Ishouldn'tcare what an idiot like that thinks but I hope he at leastdoesn'tmake her feel bad. The last thing she needs is for her father to show disapproval for who she is.

At the end of the day the only thing I can do is accept her and never show her the turmoil going on inside. When the time comes and she begins dating women and bringing them home I will just have to grin and bear it, or maybe by the time she's dating women I will have learned to accept it.